Thursday, September 7th, 2006
I was reading up on Afifah’s page, she had some real funny
politically-fuelled posters (photoshops of movie posters, one of which
featured Pak Lah and Dr. M, the movie title: Dah Benci Kot hehe), and
as I read her confession of her love for politics, it got me to somehow
reexamine myself in this particular area. Politics.
I’ve never
been a fan of politics, particularly because of the fact that politics
is man’s game, and I’ve never been a fan of people. Man, people,
humans. I find it to be a bit of a joke, really, of how I came to
aspire to be a lawyer, I mean, every facet of a lawyer’s life entails
having interactions with people, like it or not. I could, anyway, be a
an-everest-of-a-document-pile-on-my-desk kinda lawyer, but I can’t do
that since I do crave some fresh action, fresh challenges, and I don’t
see how that would cater to my tastes. Hmm. Being a criminal lawyer
like in those movies, perhaps representing some real interesting
high-profile case is the sort of work I wanna do, but maybe not here in
Malaysia. The serial killers aren’t nearly as hot as Jeffrey Dahmer,
dude!
Man is God’s best creation, with the very gift of logic,
and yet we abuse it in so many ways it’s not even funny anymore. Call
it teen angst or whatever, I’ve come to realize how much damage we are
capable of doing, how much destruction we are capable of creating.
After all, we have the gift of logic. We are supposed to be better than
beast, but just look around and tell me in what way are we better than
them? In what respect, if you might wanna answer me?
No I’m
not talking about the long and never-ending war in the Middle East, nor
am I talking about the African people whose mortality rate per week is
higher than Singapore’s birth rate per year. It’s just too much and too
overwhelming, and fair I will say that I’ve lost track about how many
people have died over there, because frankly, people die there every
minute and I’ve lost count. When I switch on the news all I get is the
new number of those who have died on that particular day. Don’t go and
accuse me of being inhumane or insensitive (though I may be on a
day-to-day basis) or could care less about what will happen to my
brothers and sisters over there. Truth is, I have yet to be affected
enough for those deaths to trigger some emotional turbulance inside of
me, for me to cry everytime they play a video of screaming people
getting their heads blown off, guts spluttering all over the place. I
can’t honestly be affected by something I don’t know, and I’m the last
person to feel empathy for anything. Really, you must be something to
be able to cry everytime they announce another 12 dead by suicide
bombing or famine. Then again maybe that’s just me.
The very
fact that we are capable of so much damage to the universe and to our
own kind might just be our apocalypse. he sun might still shine for
another 3 billion years, our ozone layer might just hold up, the
drastic weather changes might settle down, but we mankind will still be
fighting over territories and power and manipulation is the key.
Politics is man’s game. You can’t get away with it, but you might play
it to your own advantage. That is, after all, how we all live. There
really is no real selfless person on the face of the earth. Say a
cancer-stricked 12 year old who wouldn’t die and wouldn’t give up
simply because she doesn’t want her mom to feel lonely or be sad, it’s
not just because of that.She doesn’t wanna see her mother sad because she doesn’t want that fact to sadden her.
In the end you do what’s best for you, you play things to your own
advantage, and there is perfectly nothing wrong with that. It’s that
survival instinct that’s enabled us to come to where we are now.
Of
course, of all the evil that man is capable of, they are, too, capable
of so much good. I just haven’t been able to bear witness to much of
that lately, in the world as a whole. On a personal basis things have
been going pretty okay I guess, just lotsa work and people to deal
with.
Now I’m left wondering why I didn’t take veterinary
science, maybe that way I could minimize contact with people and
concentrate on God’s other creations who have no malice whatsoever.
Whatever it is that they do, they do it out of survival instinct, void
of any mens rea, void of any conniving plots. They’re pure and honest,
and that is why I’ve always preferred animals than humans. I’m not a
zoophilliac, alright! Dumbass. It’s like growing up, I’ve been forced
to interact with people, to empathize with them and show some sort of
care when in fact I don’t give shit whatever happens to them, unless of
course am to be affected in some way or another. Unless, of course,
it’s my family. I feel like such a mafia now. Huh. I should probably do an omerta, but that would be wrong tsk tsk tsk.
Ignore the somewhat boring take on politics, I told you I’m totally in denial of the pile of work I actually have…
On a sunnier side…I JUST WATCHED HOUSE S03E01!!! Prison Break the second season’s finished d/lding too, only i couldn’t get the second episode, the d/l’s been real slow . It happens when you miss the mad rush. *sigh* If only the break lasts for a month….
